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Jul. 1st, 2009

Magick Waves


-- Nothing went right today.

-- I feel so angry right now and I don't know how to handle it.

-- Even though I got a lot accomplished today, I still feel like S***

-- When I get this angry I do wicked things to myself.

-- It's going to be a very long, long night.

Jun. 25th, 2009


The Jungle Test

You Are Wise
You are a protector and teacher. You help people deal with their struggles.

Right now, you are seeking peace and tranquility in your life.

You are drawn to people who are philosophical and thoughtful.

You feel like there is nothing in your life that needs to be changed.

You take time before you react. You allow yourself to explore your options.

Jun. 24th, 2009


Flower Symbolism -- Love Expression

Do you have a hard time talking to your sweetie about your feelings? Do you get tongue-tied around your crush? If so, your flower is the gardenia.

According to floriology, the study of flower symbolism, gardenias symbolize secret love because they supposedly hold a secret within their petals.

Your mysterious nature may intrigue your crush enough to make the first move, but bottling up all those emotions isn't always a good thing. Why hide your feelings when you have a shot at making your fantasy a reality?

Maybe you don't have the words to tell your love how you feel, or maybe the thought of spilling your guts scares the crap out of you. Either way, you can get your message across with a bouquet of gardenias--sans the sweaty palms and stuttering.

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It's All in the Cards

Do you love the library? Are you the first person your friends turn to for homework help? When the deck is shuffled, it seems like you fall within the club suit.

Like most clubs, it appears that you like learning in all forms. Whether it's visiting a local historical house or taking a foreign language class over the summer, you love to expand your ever-growing brain. Club suits are also great at critical thinking and are able to gather information quickly. Something tells us this comes in handy when throwing together a last minute research project.

However, clubs can easily be stuck when they encounter a bout of procrastination. And, the world and all its secrets can seem overwhelming at times. But as long as clubs keep themselves interested, you should have no problem moving forward--for school or personal reasons...

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Jun. 22nd, 2009


Numerology Quiz

How very inspiring and uplifting.........

Xx O

Melanie, your Life Path of 7 ...

You are a reserved, analytical and peace-loving soul who is blessed with intuition and intelligence. Your ability to concentrate, learn and absorb information far outshines other numbers and you often excel at all forms of scholastics. Usually your intellectual prowess as well as the clarity and foresight of mind is very evident to others at an early age.

However at the same time you are also a very spiritual number. This is because you believe whole heartedly in the relationship between Mother Nature and science. This is part of your inquisitive nature and determination to get to the bottom of what makes the world tick.

You dislike braggarts, gossips and neurotic individuals and find socializing difficult. This is because you can barely hold back your contempt of other people, who are often, indeed acting like fools. You dislike crowds, noise and confusion, so others are more likely to find you watching television at home rather than attending a big sports events.

As you are so intelligent and intuitive, you almost always end up being in the right place at the right time. Number 7's tend to excel at any career that they choose as they have the discipline and mental power to master anything in half the time of the other numbers. As they are so smart, they are also often very good with money and never make the mistake of letting compound interest work against them. If you are a seven then you are the number that is probably the most reluctant to lend or borrow money.

Your mind works at the speed of lightening but often this makes it difficult for you to be understood by others. Others simply cannot evaluate or analyze information as fast as you. Some 7's have such quick minds that they have difficulty expressing themselves. One of your life path challenges is to learn how to slow down and accommodate those that may not be as smart as you but may offer you emotional rewards in your life.

The fact that you are so easily misunderstood makes social and love situations very challenging for you. Usually 7's suffer a great deal of rejection from their peers as they are seen as contemptuous and aloof. Overcoming shyness is also a common problem for sensitive 7's who can't understand why others don't appreciate how smart they are.

You are not likely to have a wide circle of friends, but once you do accept someone as your friend the bond is usually for life. The same thing goes for your love life. It is not unusual for a seven to go their entire life without a partner simply because you cannot relate to the emotions and drama that accompany most relationships. This causes you to appear self-centered to others as you opt to spend your time on more interesting subjects.

As emotions are very trying for your brilliant mind, you may find yourself feeling very unbalanced when you are in a relationship. More than any other number you are very prone to negative codependent behaviors such as obsession or acting out fears of abandonment on a partner. For this reason many close personal relationships don't often last.

You are happiest when you are alone to pursue your innermost thoughts and inner dreams. You may also be interested in the occult or metaphysical matters as well as science, anthropology, archaeology and religions. Many number 7's are great music lovers as it is an art form that blends math with spiritual qualities.

Melanie, your Expression of 1 ...
Your Potential Natural Talents and Abilities

You are a doer, not a dreamer. You express yourself through definitive choices and deliberate action. Nothing irritates you more than people who procrastinate, are self-indulgent or spend too much time analyzing a situation before acting.

You are a courageous and natural born leader who is not afraid to makes things happen. The penultimate in self-expression for a number 1 is the outward manifestations of success: rewards, recognition and material abundance! These are the things that define you, not the opinions of other people.

You are naturally aggressive by nature, but a charm and a talent for persuasion temper it. You are an incredible multi-tasker and project manager. For this reason many of you thrive in such positions as producers, leaders, sales executives and administrators.

You retreat from situations where you feel you are not in control and may express resentment of authority or be uncooperative. This is why you need an occupation where you can act on your own without too much restraint from others.

You can be quite blunt in your approach to things to the extent that others can perceive you as being too controlling or heartless. These traits help you make a killing when it comes to business, but your frankness is not often appreciated in personal relationships. One thing that many number ones need to master during their lifetime is the fine art of tact.

You also have a tendency to jump to conclusions or make assumptions about others without fully analyzing the matter first. People are often startled by your tendency to "look before you leap." For this reason, you need a right hand man or woman or some kind of best friend to encourage you to sleep on important matters before you make a split decision.

Your natural physical grace and beauty often has you excelling at dancing and athletics. As you are a very proud number, you are always meticulously groomed and putting your best foot forward in life. People are often very impressed by the consistency of your habits and routines. However sometimes an over preoccupation with fashion or your looks can make you seem shallow to others.

You are very clear and concise with your speech and body language. For this reason you often come across as being very forthright and honest, even if you are not!

In love you tend to be the one to take the lead as you are usually eager to express your feelings so that the matter is taken care of in the future. This is sometimes too pushy to loved ones who may process their feelings at a slower rate than you. You may also have a bad habit of deciding how someone feels before asking them.

When it comes to fashion and style you prefer the simplicity of classic tailoring and traditional styles. However you also love anything that can bear your initials or a signature so many of your items may bear a monogram. You may also express your individuality by adding a personal unique touch to a classic piece of clothing.

Your fondness for things that are one of a kind may also extend to your furniture and heart. You express how proud you are of your achievements by taking good care of your possessions. You also take care of number one by paying careful attention to your physical body and for this reason tend to enjoy good health well into your later years.

Melanie's Soul Urge

What You Desire To Be, To Have, and To Do In Your Life

Your soul urge is to nurture and take care of others. You love people and believe the greatest expression of your inner divinity is through teaching and guidance. Many of you are very maternal or paternal at an early age and are often regulated, by default to the role of advisor or therapist in your social life.

Unfortunately your willingness to take on other people's burdens threatens your romantic relationships. This is because you are often perceived as a friend or a helper rather than as an object of desire. The result is that many sixes end up with broken hearts simply because others simply could not recognize their empathy as being an expression of love and desire.

Part of your challenge in life is to learn how to make yourself more sexually attractive to others. Often this means learning the brutal rules of the game of love, which in courtship often mean practicing a certain kinds of power plays and being mysterious. The mistake that you often make is letting yourself be too available to the person you are trying to attract. As the object of desire realizes that you are willing to be there for them no matter what, they take it for granted that you will settle for less. It is often a six who will spend a year comforting someone they are attracted to in the hopes the person will recognize their good heart, only to be dismayed when they are thanked for all their kind support and the person moves onto a romance with someone else.

Your candidness and forthright manner is also a drawback romantically as others are turned off by your dogmatic approach. As you tend to discuss everything about yourself with a member of the opposite sex, there is little mysterious or sexy about you. Spilling your guts does not help you professionally either, as it encourages others to steal your ideals. Part of your inner struggle might be fighting your urge to connect so intimately with every single person you meet. One way to combat this is to make an effort to be a little more stand offish and play your cards close to your chest, especially when it comes to romance.

As you are a very sensitive and compassionate person you tend to take things very personally. When others let you down you have a tendency to retreat from society and nurse your wounds. Often when a six decides to play the victim in a relationship he or she is met with very little sympathy or help. This is ironic as sixes are so eager to help others and comfort them when they are down and out. The cosmos presents you with this type of situation so that you are forced to heal yourself with the same type of focus and devotion that you use to heal others.

If you feel yourself succumbing to a tendency to isolate yourself or find yourself succumbing to addiction or depression your best course of action is to forget about yourself entirely and go out and make an effort to help someone less fortunate than you. This teaches you to be helpful to people you are not attracted to as sixes have a way of only making themselves useful to individuals that they find attractive or desire.

The very highest calling of your soul urge number is to renounce sex and relationships altogether and devote your life to a religious or spiritual practice.


The only number that doesn't quite add up to me is #6. While some things seem quite accurate, others just don't. I would like more information before jumping to any conclusions.

Xx O

Swipped from whymsical_one

Your dominant element is metal. Is your room relatively neat and your homework rarely late? The ancient Yin-Yang scholars saw metal types as being very organized, disciplined--and trustworthy. Friends may turn to you for advice and appreciate that you generally take their questions seriously and try to find the most logical answer. But when you get competitive, watch out! Metal types hate to lose.

Metal is strong and hard to bend and is related to strength and persistence in the human body.

Courage is the dominant elemental energy of metal and this helps us to step in when someone is being treated unfairly or needs to be backed up.

Metal also shines, providing a certain degree of pride. It is the element that leads us to expect recognition for the things we do well.

To make the most of its reflective quality, metal needs a lot of space and no distractions. Open spaces and minimalist decorations can have a calming effect on metallically dominant people.

A dry climate is best for metal energy, as it prevents it from rusting out. The colors that correspond to metal are white and all metallic shades, like silver, gold and copper.

Metal types tend to like their food spicy.

NOTE: Metal types also tend to have prominent cheekbones and carved chins.

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Cool-- It's bee forever since I've occupied my mind with one of these silly-cool little quizzies : )

Aug. 5th, 2006



I haven't completely disappeared, though I have been using my space more these days.

School starts for me on the 23rd, and I'm taking 10 hours this semester. I have an Anatomy and PhysiologyI class, Nutrition and Welness, and Developmental Psych.

I've still been suffering the lingering effects of estrogen that i have been off of for over 2 months. If my symptoms don't stop (or keep increasing) I am supposed to go to the hosptial Monday or Tuesday. I don't need this. I have studying to do, work to do, and my body is not working right.

I miss all of you very much, and will try to stay more connected to Lj.

Much Love,

Xx O

Apr. 22nd, 2006


Not really a Vanishing Act......

--- I've been away from Lj for a little while, but find myself
missing it!! Go figure : )

--- I plan to start posting again sometime this week.

Have a Good Weekend, Everyone!

Xx O

Mar. 18th, 2006


(no subject)

Which Egyptian God/Goddess Suits You Best by shini K
The God/Goddess that best represents youRe (Sun God)
Your chosen form of worshipBuild replicas of the Great Pyramids in your back yard (much to the dismay of the neighbors)
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Mar. 6th, 2006

Window Witch

The Alchemy of Love.......


You come to us
from another world

From beyond the stars
and void of space.
Transcendent, Pure,
Of unimaginable beauty,
Bringing with you
the essence of love

You transform all
who are touched by you.
Mundane concerns,
troubles, and sorrows
dissolve in your presence,
Bringing joy
to ruler and ruled
To peasant and king

You bewilder us
with your grace.
All evils
transform into

You are the master alchemist.

You light the fire of love
in earth and sky
in heart and soul
of every being.

Through your love
existence and nonexistence merge.
All opposites unite.
All that is profane
becomes sacred again


Mar. 2nd, 2006


Sunny Days Are Back Again.......

--- Today is the first real day I am feeling good, and
wouldn't you know it, the sun is shining : )

--- It was warm today. In the 80's. The slightest breeze
was blowing as the Sun poured down onto me. It was

--- Aimee was kind enough to snap a few pics for me,
and I will share one here, and there are more new one's
on My Space.

Xx O

Here you go Nemmie, I have had several requests to post some more, so here you go : )

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Enjoy Nemmie : )

Xx O
Window Witch

Lovingly borrowed from glooms Xx O

the Romantic
Test finished!
you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR.

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

  • Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
  • Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
  • Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
  • Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
  • Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a Four

  • my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
  • my ability to establish warm connections with people
  • admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
  • my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
  • being unique and being seen as unique by others
  • having aesthetic sensibilities
  • being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a Four

  • experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
  • feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
  • feeling guilty when I disappoint people
  • feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
  • expecting too much from myself and life
  • fearing being abandoned
  • obsessing over resentments
  • longing for what I don't have

Fours as Children Often

  • have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original game s
  • are very sensitive
  • feel that they don't fit in
  • believe they are missing something that other people have
  • attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
  • become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
  • feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

Fours as Parents

  • help their children become who they really are
  • support their children's creativity and originality
  • are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
  • are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
  • are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

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Would you rather have chosen:

  • AY (EIGHT)
  • CY (SIX)
  • BX (NINE)
  • BZ (FIVE)

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    Mar. 1st, 2006


    Temporary Change......

    I will still update Lj every now and then, but
    I think I am going to post less here and focus
    more on the dreaded MY SPACE!!! hehehe

    I revamped my profile and finally picked
    my perm name. I may or may not blog there,
    but I have met some ineresting people I
    want to keep up with : )

    Feel free to visit my MY SPACE Page...


    Peace Out!

    Xx O

    Feb. 27th, 2006


    Night time silence and relaxation......

    The World
    You scored 68 change, 81 wellbeing, 71 wisdom, and 38 truth

    This card represents the continuance and never-ending cycle of life. The four figures in the corners of the card represent the 4 fixed zodiac signs that represent that the laws of the universe remain unchanged and orderly. The wreath surrounding the woman is symbolic of a zero which is the symbol of god and from which all things emerge.

    some extra words:

    experiencing wholeness
    bringing parts together
    achieving dynamic balance
    creating synthesis
    joining together
    working in unison

    realizing your goals
    achieving your heart's desire
    seeing dreams come true
    finding a beautiful solution

    becoming involved
    rendering a service
    using a gift or talent
    sharing what you have
    giving of yourself
    feeling engaged
    being active

    feeling fulfilled
    savoring the present
    taking pleasure in life
    enjoying peace of mind
    getting satisfaction
    finding contentment
    counting your blessings

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    Peace Out!

    Xx O

    Feb. 21st, 2006

    I AM


    --- As much as I will miss all of you while I am
    gone, I honestly think the time away will be good
    for me.

    --- When life twists and turns with change, transitions,
    and decisions we often find ourselves walking through the
    famous Hall of Mirrors.

    --- Are we seeing ourselves for who we really are,
    or are we merely seeing a reflection of an illusion that we
    want or perceive to be reality. Are we honoring our intuition
    and spirit, or do we caught up in the web of mirrors and
    trap doors.

    --- Each soul must walk the through the Hall and choose
    which porthole to walk through with caution and eyes wide
    open. Otherwise, the trap-door shuts with a thundering slam
    and we find ourselves stuck.

    Man’s ideal state is realized when he has fulfilled the
    purpose for which he is born. And what is it that reason
    demands of him? Something very easy—that he live in accordance
    with his own nature.


    Feb. 20th, 2006


    Final Step

    --- I just finished completing all of my paper work
    for student withdrawal. I feel weird, sad, and estranged, yet....
    somehow... relieved.

    May the mixed emotions that remain soon settle.

    I wrote a final note to my Professors to thank
    them and let them know how much I appreciate them.
    Truly, I do miss them.

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    Feb. 19th, 2006



    I feel like vanishing from the face of the earth
    and merging back into the waters of Creation.....
    or Un-creation.

    Feb. 16th, 2006


    Alchemy Quest........

    --- Though I have been quite sad and depressed about the
    situation w/ school, I have come to honestly realize
    that perhaps it is for the best.

    --- There are still several different career directions I
    have yet to decide on, and this will give me time to find
    my center. To know exactly what I am going to go for.

    --- This will also allow me the privilege of working with
    my Reiki students more closely and enable me to devote more
    time to them. By honoring my students, I honor myself, as for
    every healing they go through, I too will go through one. Be
    it painful or beautiful. In the end it is a Divine Union
    if only the Transformation is allowed to pour forth.

    --- I will also have more time to dedicate to learning to make
    jewelry. Reiki blessed jewlery, as well as continuing my line
    of Black Scrying Mirrors, and a line of what will be
    Angel Mirrors, and Isis Scrying Mirrors.
    All mirrors are opened with Reiki Attunements and Blessings.

    --- There are stacks of books I have on my shelf that I want to
    read. Books on empowering myself through spiritual technique and
    healing. I can delve deeper into my own shackles and chains
    and learn to break free of them. I can re-discover myself, and
    meet new parts of myself that I was previously unaware of.

    --- This will also give me time I need to devote to doing my
    probationary work for the Sanctuary of Ma'at. The cycle begins.
    You reach the World and all of a sudden you are thrown back
    down to the Fool. Only this time with eyes that are more
    enriched and awakened.

    --- I will have more time to spend with my beloved David, my
    family and friends.

    --- If I want to go to Reiki Circles and take classes at Cassasdaga
    I am free to do so.

    --- Yes.... I think this was Divine Intervention for my own
    good to help me gain a better understanding of my path and finding
    the proper direction to channel my energy into. As there are several
    directions I could take in the healing field, and truly, I am
    having a hard time deciding where the focus should be.

    --- I can only pray that I will not owe the school money so that I
    may return in Summer or Fall when I know which direction I
    am shooting for.

    --- Today..... I feel.... Blessed.

    Blessings of the Neteru

    Xx O

    Image created by John Hagens R.I.P.

    Feb. 15th, 2006


    Curling up inside..........

    It's one of those rare moments
    for me where I actually feel
    things I don't normally feel.


    I miss David so bad.
    I wish he would come over
    and hold me.

    He wouldn't have to say a single word.

    I just want to snuggle into him
    and feel our Reiki turn on and bask
    in Its Divine and Beautiful energy,
    as we silently love one another with
    breath rather than word.

    Feb. 14th, 2006


    Golden Treasures..........

    For the past 7 years, I have contemplated joining
    the Golden Dawn. At one point, I had went through
    an Orientation with the Morning Star group and had
    my 150$ money order in hand. However, there was
    Divine Intervention and I ended up not

    I am happy to announce that I am now a member (Probation)
    of the Hermetic Sanctuary of Ma'at!! I am very excited to
    be a part of this group, and have high hopes of reaching
    the deeper core part of myself and the Great-Beyond.

    I joined about 2 weeks ago, but decided not to announce
    it right away due to personal reasons, but I am what I am,
    and will do what I will do.

    Anyone interested in joining the Golden Dawn should seriously
    check out the Sanctuary of Ma'at! Truly, they are wonderful,
    devoted people.

    Hetep (Supreme Peace)

    --- Soror AF


    My Valentine..............


    You are my heart. You make me smile when no one else
    in the world can. You melt my ice into flowing tides
    of cool refreshing water. You transform my bitterness
    into compassion, and my judgement into tolerance.

    You have treated me as no other ever has.
    You are so gentle and kind to me. You treat
    me as if I am a rare flower. You breathe life
    into me when melancholy tries to smother me. You
    pull me away from the fire when I am about ready to
    burn myself. You calm me when I am raging and storming
    out of control.

    I love you for so many reasons. Reasons I cannot verbally
    express, but only let you feel as I look into your eyes
    or gently caress your face as I whisper sweet words of
    Divine Love into your precious little ears.

    If ever I have had a true Valentine, it is you.

    I Love You, David

    Xx O


    (Yes, he really calls me puppy)


    Feb. 13th, 2006



    I am sick..

    I have a horrible cough with lots of chest congestion.

    Is it a cold, or is it more serious, like bronchitis?
    I don't know.

    What I do know is I feel like my body
    is breaking apart internally and externally.
    This cough I have is pretty dangerous sounding.

    I hate being sick, it will take me at least 2 weeks to
    get over this.

    I don't understand. I take good care of myself, I swallow
    a minimum of 10 vitamins and stuff that is supposed to keep
    me healthy.

    I am seriously contemplating dropping my classes. Not because
    I *want* to, but because all my teachers count attendance toward
    my grade, and there is no way I can pull A's with being sick.

    I can't even begin to express how much this pisses me off.
    I would still do my work even being sick.
    I shouldn't be penalized for something I have no control over.

    I can't stop crying.

    P.S. When I went to the student make-up testing center,
    everyone was coughing and hacking and I just knew I was
    going to get sick. I swear to fucking Sobek, I am going
    to start wearing a Michael Jackson mask........

    Feb. 12th, 2006


    I am *such* a dork.........

    I fell asleep while doing homework!!!

    That means I need to finish up last nights
    homework now, so I can finish today's
    later this evening..

    Ohhhh boy.....

    *grumble grumble*

    It's gonna be a long morning/day.

    I want to go shopping!
    I wanna go shopping!
    God... That sounds soooo good!


    No shopping... well... maybe a little : )

    Xx O

    Feb. 11th, 2006


    Globe Fascination!

    --- Next week I will finally be able to order
    a Globe I have wanted for a long time!!

    --- This is a most awesome piece of work!
    I see it as a very good cultural and geographical

    --- Of course, now I have realized that they have
    globes of Mars, other planets, stars, etc.

    --- I have a feeling this is going to become an
    obsession of collecting globes.

    --- Here she is in all her glory!!

    A brilliant geography learning tool.

    Winner of several educational awards, the new SmartGlobe by
    Oregon Scientific is the most advanced interactive talking
    globe on the market. It's the only educational globe in the
    world that can be updated via Internet connection through
    your home computer! Download the latest geographical information,
    current events, election results, and more.
    This globe will never be out-of-date.

    Globe trotters are given a digital tour around the world through
    nearly 30 learning activities including country capitals, currency
    conversion and national anthems. Plus, it's great for multi-player
    games accommodating up to four players.

    Features include:

    -- Over 30 learning activities
    -- A domestic map included for more comprehensive exposure
    -- Diverse age targeted content available via Internet download
    USB connection for data update with SmartUpdate

    -- Wireless and compact design
    -- High quality sound
    -- Large internal memory (64Mb Flash)
    -- Touch and Tell, Comparison, and Find modes via the wireless stylus pen
    -- Includes flags from around the world
    -- Important - This is PC compatible only

    *** This is simply the most sophisticated globe available.
    Perfect for kids and adults alike. ***


    Feb. 4th, 2006


    Life Path Number

    Your Life Path Number is 7

    Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning

    You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life.
    You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights. A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way.

    In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit.

    While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme.
    You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends.
    Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

    I am highly aware of ny NEED (not *want*) for solitude.

    And yes, I do interact with others, creatively and with expression
    on a daily basis.

    Sometimes I feel like I need more time alone.

    In fact, more often than not, I feel *lonely*
    with other people around. I would rather feel
    ALONE than lonely.

    I have seriously thought about remainig alone for
    the rest of life. In other words, no more marriage,
    no fuck buddy's, which is absolutely DISGUSTING.

    I could live a life of warmth w/ celibacy and solitude.

    But where..

    It will take YEARS to obtain that.
    Years I have, as far as I know. But how long
    before a relationship has a smothering effect on
    me is another story entirely. Smothering me will
    send me to the woods SCREAMING. And I may not
    come back out.

    My mother smothered me for 17 years, and it has taken
    TWELVE YEARS to begin to rebuild a relationship w/ her.

    I was not going to chance being smothered or criticized...
    Or rather.......... Smothered in her criticism.

    Thankfully, she has mellowed out a lot, and even when we
    don't agree on things, it is very diplomatic and respectful,
    and she doesn't try to interfere. It took ma many years to
    make a decision on if I wanted to try to reconcile. Then there
    was the issue of if "she" would "want" to reconcile. Thankfully
    she did/does. However, if she would not have wanted to, yes, I would
    have felt pain, but would have gotten over it. Though, I did not
    want it to be that way. I like to be in good standing with people
    I love, even when they have hurt me. My mother never understood me
    enough to know she was hurting me, though the signs were quite obvious.

    Once someone smothers me, or does not understand my need
    for privacy I am typically done with them. Not because I
    dis-like them, but because I know they will eat away at my

    Don't get me wrong.. Please.. Understand...

    I LOVE people.
    People, and helping people are my reason
    for being alive, and for continuing to better
    myself. So I may serve them, as I serve my

    However, I treasure my space.
    Without my space and freedom, I could
    not do what I do for them, nor could I
    have reached down into the depths of my
    issue's, which I continue to do.

    The isolation has been coming up a lot
    recently. I want to study my Natal Chart and
    Numerology chart more to gain some extra insight.

    Peace Out.........

    Xx O

    Feb. 2nd, 2006



    Today I am wearing a beautiful pair of hand-made purple
    ear rings, butterflies nonetheless.... made by the lovely

    Thank you again, Mandy!
    They are stunning and elegant.
    Truly, it makes me feel happy to
    wear them!

    Xx O

    P.S. Thank you for the clothes you sent back with Aimee!
    The dresses are absolutely radiant in all their Gothic
    Glory : )

    Jan. 29th, 2006


    Defiant Saddam Removed From Court Room

    It must really suck for him!!
    He's not in his Kansas anymore.


    Jan. 28th, 2006

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    Borrowed from isian Xx O

    You Are a Rainbow

    Breathtaking and rare
    You are totally enchanting and intriguing
    But you usually don't stick around long!

    You are best known for: your beauty

    Your dominant state: seducing

    Jan. 21st, 2006

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    Happy Birthday, Geoff!! : )

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY mixcoatl77!!!

    Hugs & Butterfly kisses

    Xx O

    (no subject)

    I'm awake unusually early again today.
    Been up since 6:30 this morning. While I have
    a lot to do today, it won't be until around 6:30
    that I (hopefully) go out to Daytona to pick up
    a friend.

    It's going to be a long but interesting day.

    Jan. 20th, 2006


    Don't get me hooked on these (bleep) things again!

    The Mystery
    You reflect the mystery of the spirit. A soul is a
    very mysterious thing and you have proven thise
    to us. This mysterious quality probably means
    that you know more about your spirit than most
    people know about their own, and you keep this
    a well kept sercret, for there are just some
    things that mustn't be known.

    rate high ;-)

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    Super-swipe from nemtetsemnewty Xx O

    Which Witch RU?

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    have problems. Ishmal can do spells and potions from heart,
    create their own spells that work efficiently, and able to do
    special skills like Seeing. In Lin Tongue, Ishmal is respected as
    the high male wizard who crowned the first High Council Member to
    rule the witches.

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    "No disease of the imagination ... is so difficult of cure as that
    which is complicated with the dread of guilt: fancy and conscience
    then act interchangeably upon us, and so often shift their places that
    the illusions of one are not distinguished from the dictates of the other.
    If fancy presents images not moral or religious, the mind drives
    them away when they give it pain; but when melancholic notions
    take the form of duty, they lay hold on the faculties without
    opposition, because we are afraid to exclude or banish them.
    For this reason the superstitious are often melancholy, and the
    melancholy almost always superstitious."

    Johnson: Rasselas

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    Jan. 19th, 2006


    This weekend!

    --- Assuming I am not getting sick, and I pray I am not,
    I will have the opportunity to spend time with a dear
    friend whom I have not seen in approximately a year.

    --- It will be a weekend of devotion, mystical experience,
    and deep spiritual-bonding. I look forward to seeing you,
    my kindred friend.

    Xx O

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    Jan. 17th, 2006

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    Welcome aquene27 : )

    Much love to you...............

    Xx O

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    Jan. 16th, 2006

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    Educational Grant

    --- Is this a joke?

    --- I received a notice that I am eligable
    for a grant of 5,000$ minimum which can be used
    for education.

    --- I called the agency, and went through the approval
    process and I am approved.

    --- Here's the deal. I have to pay a 300$ processing
    fee, but if for ANY reason I did not receive the 5,000$
    it would be refunded immediately.

    --- The process of getting this should I decide to go for
    it will still take about 2-3 months which would put me in
    good standing for summer and fall semester.

    --- The agency that contacted me is: Kensington Assistance
    Agency, and they are based out of New York.

    --- Does anyone have any more specific information on how
    this process works, and if it is indeed worth my time?
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    New Software & Stuff........

    --- Yesterday, despite the slight emotional distress
    thgouh-out the day, it turned out to be a very productive

    --- I finished most all homework. All that's left to do is
    take an online quiz.

    --- David bought me a Water Color Light and Sound Sculpture!
    I adore it! It lights up with pretty colors and the patterns
    change. It also has a setting for nature sounds and the lights
    dance to it. Quite a lovely piece.

    --- Work was slow this weekend. This was probably a record
    breaking weekend for NO calls. **sigh** I'm taking the day
    off, just because I can't deal with that for 3 nights in a row.
    Things will pick up again soon. It could be partly my fault, as
    mentally and emotionally I was a bit tired, and probably needed
    to replenish.

    --- Today I need to re-organize my desk and make new room for the
    software I bought a while back, but haven't hooked up yet.
    Check it out....


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    * Easy-to-use 'Magic Ring' biofeedback sensors
    * More than 40 unique energy and breathing 'Events'
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    and manual and guide book.

    The Journey to Wild Divine is an enchanting adventure for mind,
    body and spirit that links special biofeedback equipment with
    your computer to create a truly enlightening and entertaining
    multi-media experience. Adventure through a mythical world of
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    mentors where you are challenged to deepen your self-awareness
    with every step you take. Wild Divine integrates a personal
    spiritual quest with an innovative biofeedback interface and
    high-end multimedia production.

    Jan. 14th, 2006


    My Love to You....

    --- To everyone who has ever touched my life, I give thanks
    and love to you. Whether you have been in my life for 15
    years, or you have passed through my life like a gentle breeze
    or roaring hurricane, my love is with each and everyone of you.

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    Jan. 13th, 2006



    I forgot I have a 2:00 dentist appointment.
    That has just thrown my planned schedule

    That's ok.... I can re-work it.

    It should be a quick apopintment, just an incovenience.
    One that needs to be taken care of.

    Jan. 11th, 2006

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    Peers over at whimsycal_one with glasses lowered!

    My Darling Aimee,

    Right after you so gracefully and enchantedly pranced
    out the door, guess what I found?

    None-other-than.... A freshly opened can of Dr. Pepper
    that had approximately one-sip taken out of it. And it was
    left on the stove!


    I don't even want to hear it!!


    Xx O

    I love you, beautiful Dragon-Lady : )

    Jan. 10th, 2006


    This & That.... Xx O

    --- Tomorrow will be a busy day, as I already have a paper
    due for my Anthropology class on Thursday, which I don't
    mind. It is simply a reaction paper to the first

    --- There are no in-class tests for this class. They
    are all online and open book! You can take each test/quiz
    up to 5 times. There are 17 all together.

    --- Her work-load is heavy, but I must say, I have already read the
    first chapter once, and I really like the book.

    --- I also want to start my new work schedule tomorrow,
    so I will be occupied with work and homework for most
    of the day.

    --- I missed my last class of the day, which I was not prepared
    for since my early class got dropped. David and I already had
    plans to visit his mother in the hospital.

    --- Beverly is doing much better, though she is still having
    problems with severe headaches, but they are taking really
    good care of her. The Neurologist has not went over the test
    results yet, but we expect to find out more tomorrow.

    --- As for the rest of tonight, I am just going to relax, try
    to breathe, and contemplate some new things I want to take on.
    Getting back into Yoga is one of them. Also, it is time to put
    back on the running shoes. Running would be a great stress reliever,
    and yoga would help with focus and concentration, and I could always
    use a boost of both.

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    --- I managed to pick up another class. Not exactly
    my choice class, but everything else I wanted
    was already taken. Needless to say, it is an elective,
    and not one I would have chosen. College Success.


    Ohhhh yippee-hippy.

    --- I'm not knocking the class or saying it is a useless
    class, just not what I wanted to spend 3 of my elective credits

    --- I went down to the bookstore in attempt to get the
    new book I will need, and as I figured, the lines were
    already at an approximate 3-4 hour wait, and... I just
    can't wait that long right now because my next class is
    in an hour and a half.

    --- On a lighter note, my Anthropology Prof is
    a total nut! I love her : ) Everyone in the
    class seems to be really nice as well.

    --- Transportation is the next thing I will need
    to work out, and am praying it will work out.

    Jan. 9th, 2006

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    Grabbed from meteru Xx O

    1. Grab the nearest book.
    2. Open the book to page 123.
    3. Find the fifth sentence.
    4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
    5. Don't search around and look for the coolest book you can find. Do what's actually next to you.

    "The text also describes the discovery of Brother Rosencreutz's
    seven-sided burial vault, illuminated by an inner sun and containing
    a round alter, covered with a plate of brass which was engraved: I
    have made this Tomb a compendium of the Universe."

    From: Magic and Witchcraft - From Shamanism to the
    . By, Nevill Drury.
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    *Bellows and Snarls*

    The school called to tell me that one of my
    classes has been canceled due to low enrollment.
    Now I must shuffle and scramble to find something
    during add/drop.

    As if this semester wasn't going to be hectic and
    hard enough as it is... But I must find another
    class. Hopefully I can pick up the same one I was going
    to take at a later time, if not, that means dealing with
    lines wrapped around the bookstore.


    Jan. 7th, 2006

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    Moment of Longing....

    Do not get me wrong, I love being in FL, but I sometimes
    miss Austin so much. Not only because it was stunningly
    beautiful, but because of all the action going on.

    Reading valkyriie journal, I see there is a huge
    event going on to support the Underground Electronica Movement,
    and man... I wish I could be there!!!

    Yes, little miss-melancholy would gladly go in brightly colored
    clothing and roll the night away...

    Oddly enough, I could be talked into just about anything
    today. (Too a certain degree)

    Not sure why, but I feel different.

    Jan. 6th, 2006

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    A Swift Punch:

    School starts on January 11th, which just happens to
    be the day my Divorce finazlied.

    School ends on May 5th, the day I got married...


    At least Brian and I can both laugh about it, and
    have empathy for one another.

    I told him that if my GPA goes down, I blame him!
    (Of course I wouldn't!!) hehehe

    Jan. 4th, 2006

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    Time is running short.......

    --- I have to go to the Dentist to get a crown set.

    --- I need to start cleaning out and reorganizing my room
    before time slips by me, and it's the day before school

    --- I need to start preperations for making 2 more black
    mirrors, and one Isis Scrying Mirror.

    --- I wanted to see my parents this weekend, but they are
    tied up, so we are thinking the following weekend.

    --- I've had a few days off work, so it's time to start
    working again tomorrow. As to what shift/s I will be
    working, I have not decided yet.

    --- What I have decided is that: I hate my schedule
    this semester. 15 minutes between each class hardly gives me
    time to go to the bathroom, let alone eat. And when I don't
    eat, I feel very fatigued and just over-all lousy. So, I'm
    going to have to come up with a plan. School starts for me
    on Tuesday.

    --- It has been a lazy-day today. Too lazy. I have too much to do
    to feel lazy. Angels willing, I will feel this energized or motivated
    tomorrow when I really neeed to start putting things into action.

    Borrrowed from beardedlynie Xx O

    You two would probably really get along!
    Not a religion founder in any true sense, instead felt that everyone should follow their own path to God. "There is nothing but water in the holy pools. I know, I have been swimming there. All the gods sculpted of wood or ivory can’t say a word. I know, I have been crying out to them. The Sacred Books of the East are nothing but words. I looked through their covers one day sideways. What I talk about is only what I have lived through. If you have not lived through something, it is not true."

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    Jan. 3rd, 2006

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    Borrowed from shamantraveler Xx O

    LiveJournal Haiku!
    Your name:indigo_dreamz
    Your haiku:hand is continuing
    to make a relationship
    work harmoniously
    Created by Grahame

    (no subject)

    The Moon - The Nixy
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    The Moon is the card about magic, dreams and visions.
    Experiencing such things can be frightening, but also thrilling.
    If you learn how to use the magic well you've got nothing to fear
    from it and all will end well. It's an odd and disturbing time when
    you meet the Nixy of the Moon card - but she has a lot of weird and
    wonderful things to teach you.

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